Sunday, November 1, 2009

Sometimes it gets really hard to live life in the moment rather than anticipating something in the future. You know, like a child on Christmas Eve. You can't sleep at all and your heart just pounds inside your chest from the excitement of what is to come the next morning. You picture yourself waking up in the morning and running up to a tree full of presents to be opened. It always took me forever to fall asleep those nights, even though the parents would threaten that if I was not asleep by midnight, Santa would pass right over the house. Thats exactly how I feel right now. So full of anticipation and excitment for January to be here, but I know if I'm not careful, Santa is going to pass right over my house, sort to speak.


Like I mentioned before, I am moving to Sweden in January to play professional volleyball and as the time is swiftly approaching, it can't get here fast enough. Anyone who knows me knows that volleyball is a huge passion in my life. Volleyball is so much more than just a sport to me. It is the only place where things make complete since to me. Life can be so chaotic, full of questions and frusturations, but that all seems to go away when I'm on the court. When I'm on the volleyball court, the only thing on my mind is "how am I going to win!" There is a since of serenity I guess you can say.

Which is why I am so excited about January to be here! To get to play the sport I love, with the people I love (I will be joining my sister Marcie), and also get to live in a foriegn country, I couldn't ask for more! Now can you see how it is hard for me to live in the moment... but all I can do is keep plugging away day by day and live each day as it is my last :)